Monday, November 8, 2010

I may have killed my first baby.

Folks- it's a sad day up in our house. Basically- if you are on Facebook with me- you would have seen my status update about Lenny this morning. Since yesterday he's been acting strange and yesterday we attributed it to him missing Stumpy and Batman while they got their balls cut off. Well this morning he was meowing really loudly and hiding under tables. He wouldn't let the kids near him (unusual) and when I tried to pet him, he kind of whimpered and whined. And licked his butt a lot. So I figured maybe he's stressed out. He tends to get anxiety over dumb things so I figured I'd leave him be.

I went to work and when I cam home I noticed he hadn't had any food or water. This is really strange because he likes to eat but more importantly, I have to fill the water dish a LOT during the day. And he was hiding in a corner. When Matt came home I told him to check Lenny out. Lenny hissed at Matt (really unusual) but he moved a little bit. When he moved... Matt saw it. A few drops of blood where he was. Obviously- that's not good so we called the vet (20 minutes before closing) and they told us to bring him right away.

So Matt took him and basically- his bladder is full but he can't pee. It could be a fluke, it could be something worse, they won't know until they get a catheter in him and get some urine out. Once they do that they have to test it or something to see what caused the blockage.

But I am sad. Lenny is my buddy. He's our first baby and we may have killed him unknowingly. :( See?? Lenny and I sleep together. (BTW- this is me 5 months pregnant with Olivia)
So they have Lenny for the next two days or so. Just to have him for the two days and unblock his pee is minimum $667. Hi- we don't have that. We don't even have close to that. They are going to let us make payments, but we had to put a down payment tonight. Which was my phone bill. They are going to call Matt tomorrow to let them know what happened overnight and basically what the prognosis is going to be. Matt and I decided that if this is going to be a reoccurring thing... we have to put him down. We can't afford it and honestly? I don't know how we can even pay for this visit. But we have to try. And we hope it's just a fluke.

But just thinking about maybe putting him down brings me to tears. Like, I'm crying as I type this post. He is the first pet I've ever had as grown up, where I'm fully responsible for it. I just want Lenny to get better. He's only five years old- we got him right before Olivia was born. As soon as I saw him with his extra claws on his front paws I had to get him. And he's Matt's favorite cat that we have. So yeah- Matt and I are heartbroken and stressed out.
Please think happy thoughts for our kitty. Even though he humps things and bites the butts of strangers- we'd be really sad to not have him. And cross your fingers we get some miracle money otherwise Christmas may be cancelled. And that is no exaggeration. *sigh*

30 comments:

missy said...

Awww! I am so sorry to hear that! The same thing happened to my cat Peanut just this past January. We ended up having to take him in on New Years day to an ER clinic so it cost us about $1600! He hasn't had any problems since (knock on wood). To this day I still follow him to the litter box to make sure he is going. I hope everything turns out okay!

Asha said...

I'm sorry to hear about Lenny. I just dropped my dog off at the vet to get a severe case of heartworms treated. Damn Louisiana mosquitos!! We are looking at close to a grand.
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Ang said...

Nothing I can say here will even come close to cheering you up. I'm sorry you are going through this and I do know how it feels. It's horrible. I wish strength for you.

Kattrina said...

Aww, that's so sad. I hope Lenny gets better. We just went through the same thing - dog ate bib and toy and had to have surgery to remove them from his stomach and intestines. It cost $3000. Lucky for me, my BIL paid for it. Vets are SO expensive. I really hope he pulls through and that some money comes your way. Good luck!

Krysten @ After 'I Do' said...

Oh Sara. I'm so sad for you. I actually have tears in my eyes from reading this post.

I am sending tons of good thoughts your way as well as LENNY'S way. And if you need anything don't hesitate to call.

Ruth said...

Sorry to hear about your baby.
It's hard when they get sick. Pets aren't just animals. They're family.

Anna said...

Oh my, he is a very handsome boy. Perhaps it's just a bad bladder infection? I completely know how you feel about the money =/ My cat, Petey, was mis-diagnosed with cancer about a year and a half ago. Needless to say, I was a wreck. I decided I HAD to take him to the U of M to find out for sure. $1,000 later, there was no conclusive evidence that he had it. After six months of antibiotics (about $40 every 2 weeks), he was finally fully recovered. So far (knock on wood), he's been completely healthy since. Even though it was SO hard to have to charge all that - sometimes credit cards are a blessing - it was worth every penny to still have my baby with me! Here's hoping Lenny's issue is a one-time treatable thing!

jprp said...

i wish i was rich, i'd be sending you over a bucket load of money.... bloody animals hey! I swear everytime I pay off a credit card something happens to an animal and the credit card is maxed out again! (which is why i no longer pay off credit - that and a lack of funds!!)

I have everything crossed, i'm praying, doing everything I can to make sure Lenny comes back to you healthy and safe xx

BeMistified said...

My friend's cat was having the same issues, but it worked out just fine. The cat is now peeing and pooping happily. You know people have put donation buttons on their blog, some got crap over it, but who the hell cares about people who don't? It's always an option :) I hope everything goes perfectly well and that Mr. Lenny gets well fast and soon.

Amber said...

Oh Sara....I am so sorry. I cannot imagine my life without my Ella. I am sending you some positive vibes that this is not a reoccuring problem with Sweet Lenny. I would hate to see you have to put him down.

It is breaking my heart just to write this. If you need anything at all....I am just an email away.

Jean Has Been Shopping said...

I'll be praying for Lenny. Poor lil' guy. Hope he's good as new by tomorrow. We can have a fund-raiser for him.

____j said...

Thinking happy thoughts for you! Hope Lenny gets better.

Miranda said...

Awww shoot dang! So sorry about the Lenster! Sending happy hopeful thoughts your way :) Xoxo

Latharia said...

I hear ya on the cost. Same issue with our Isabelle this summer. We had to make that rough choice -- thousands of dollars for surgery that might keep her with us for a few more months just was NOT a possibility. We just didn't have the money, and the prognosis was just so awful. I really feel your heartache & wish I could make it better.

Danielle said...

Awwwww, Sara I'm so sorry to hear this. i was in tears reading this post. Animals are like members of your family, and I can't even begin to imagine how you're feeling right now. I'm definitely go to pray for your kitty and your bank account :( xoxoxo

Annah said...

I'm sorry my love. I truly hope that it's nothing serious and Lenny gets better. Please consider making the payments. There's always a way to cut corners. I paid $1500 for a doggie surgery and got to spend two more years with my wonderful doggie puppy Paco before he died of old age. It was worth it to me. I loved that old mongrel. Cyber hugs. *MUAH*

Odie Langley said...

So sorry Sarah but I do know exactly how you feel. We have our little Rocky (taco bell) dog who will be 2 in Jan. Not long after we got him he acted strange one evening walking unsteady with his head cocked to one side and then just fell over onto his side. Didn't last but a few seconds but scared us enough to take him to the vet. Turns out he has seizures which is sort of common for the breed but the tests and all came to over $800 (ouch). Now he on Phenabarbitol every day to control the seizures and is doing just fine but it took us a while to pay off that bill but we love him so much it wasn't an issue even though it was tough. You have good thoughts for your precios kitty coming to you from the chilly state of NC.
Odie

Claire said...

:( My doggie had a blockage like that, he had what they called Bladder stones which meant he was put on a special (aka bloody expensive) diet to stop the stones growing, but it didnt really work he had 2 operations to get the stones out over his 8 years of life..he died of cancer in the end, so we didn't have a choice about putting him down. and i'm always really gratefull that the decision was taken out of our hands i don't know what i would have done if i'd have had to make it.. so sad for you :(

asj said...

oh sara! my heart is breaking for you... pets become part of the family and I can only imagine how difficult this is... I'm here if you need anything!!

Helena said...

Oh Sara, I'm so sorry. I have had so many pets die, and it never gets easier. I hope it's just a fluke!

Sarah said...

Hugs and love.

C. said...

I just stumbled across your blog and I have to let you know I can completely relate. We just went through something similar with our dog this summer. We are still barreling through it. Our dog is our baby too and it was awful watching him be so sick all the time. Luckily he is doing better. There are a lot of organizations that can help you financially if you have a sick animal and can't afford care. Please take a look out there you might get lucky! Take a look at the blog for my dog and my own and feel free to ask me any questions. Good luck!

kimberrleigh said...

i completely and totally know how you feel. i just put my kitty to sleep in august, i've had her since I was 4 (she was 16 when we put her down). her kidneys were failing and she had a terrible heart murmur.

it was so hard to make the decision to put her down, but i couldn't let her suffer any longer, it wasn't fair. she was in pain - i could see it in her eyes.

sara said...

hey there -

i just read your story through krysten's blog and i want to give you a big e-hug!! i had a kitty that had the exact same problem as yours -- he got blocked and we had to catheterize him to get the crystals out of there so he could pee normally again. it was SO scary, and i've worked for vets for years! (in fact, it worries me even with my current cats... i'd hate for it to happen again!) usually once they figure out the problem, a prescription diet can help to keep that from happening again, and it's not too bad to maintain. :)

so hang in there and be strong for cute lenny <3 and know i'm about to head over to your etsy and buy some awesome cards because it's almost holiday time and your plight is way more important than me buying boring drugstore cards!! good luck and keep us posted. :)

-- sara (another one)

Aimee said...

Oh my gosh I am so so so sorry :( I hope it is just a one time thing. It really sucks that vets are so darn expensive. I know that in CA there are special programs and assistance you can apply for if you cant pay for your pets treatments so that you wouldnt have to put them down.. But I really hope its just a one time thing. Ill be thinking happy thoughts for you.

I cant imagine how I would react if I ahad to put down one of my pets :(

Kristin said...

Found you through Krysten. I just want to say I'm so sorry. I lost my kitty to heart failure a couple months ago and I know how stressful it is to worry about your fur baby. I'll be praying for yours! Bought some of your adorable owl Thanksgiving cards btw! : )

Canadianbloggergirl said...

I am soooo sorry! I've been there, with my first cat "all on my own/with hubby" with our first cat....turned out it was a block in the urinary tract and it was a 1500.00 surgery! My thoughts are with you, I know its not easy to see an animal suffer!

CBG
canadianbloggergirl.blogspot.com

prettylittlereckless said...

definitely thinking about you! vet bills suck soooo much. Hopefully they can figure out what happened though!

poet said...

been back and forth a while now. lurking. so sorry to hear of lenny. i hope they can fix him up soon. our 5 yr old, Gary has had this occur twice. he is fine now. but was $#$ for the two times we had him to the vet. and then there was the 'special' food he 'needs'. anyway, he and the rest of the feline gang are ok with the food we have them on now, and everyones' bladders and bowels are working fine. (10nov) poet.
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Another David said...

Oh God, reading this after having read everything else is like knowing the end of an awful, awful story before you even read it. I just want to once again pass along my most heartfelt condolences. I know sometimes people try to make you feel better by saying that it's just a cat, but we both know better.

Keep your chin up, hon. Time heals all wounds :)