Today was the first day of Kindergarten. Kind of. Today was basically what they call "Smart Start" in Wisconsin and for the younger grades of kids it means your parent(s) come with you on the first day to meet your teacher, fill out forms, organize your supplies, get your school picture taken, get your vision screening done, visit the lunchroom, etc. It ended up being almost an hour and a half of just wandering around the place.
But before we get to that, you probably want to see my baby girl on her first day as a for real Kindergarten student.
After rushing out of the house with her backpack we had to bring Jackson to my mom's house where he wanted his picture taken with his dog.
This year... she's gone all day. All day, folks. I don't think you really get it until you're there. I know some moms who home school simply because they don't like their child being in the hands of someone you don't know, influenced by kids you haven't hand picked as their friends and having to do things without you and make mistakes along the way. And I'm a firm believer that a child needs that. I don't care what statistics you show me about homeschooling, I am a big believer that you have to let your kid out in that world. That your parenting is put to test when they go out into the world. Will I fail? Maybe. But I think no matter what, Olivia will be OK. And Jackson too when he gets there.
So tomorrow when I drop her off... I'm probably going to cry. I'm going to try not to peep into the windows to make sure she isn't standing in the corner alone. And if she is I'm going to try very hard not to go in and rescue her. I'm going to worry the entire day that her milk money is in her lunch account, that she didn't pee her pants because she's too embarrassed to ask to go to the bathroom, that she really ate her lunch, that she isn't getting bullied but is making friends, and most importantly- that she'll have a good enough time to want to go back.
I only work for four hours tomorrow and maybe that's a good thing because it will force me to get to work on time so I can't loiter in the bushes like a crazy person.
But let's talk about how OVERWHELMED I'm feeling. I'm a highly organized person who enjoys chaos and challenges, but man. I feel really scared about how I'll do. They have an hour of math homework every night in Kindergarten. I signed up to volunteer for anything and everything so we'll see what that means for me. But for those of you who have kids in school- what are good organizational tools to keep it all together? Any resources I should know about? Any help any of you can provide... would be a million times appreciated.
By the way- tomorrow is Dear Sara. Have a question for me? Email me at sarastrand9438(at)hotmail(dot)com!