So, I am still trying to lose weight. This last week I have gotten back on my running kick again and honestly, I still hate it. I don't understand how people can honestly sit here and tell me once I feel the endorphins, I'll love it and crave it. I'm going to go ahead and call bullshit on that because if I haven't felt the endorphins yet I don't think I will.
This week I ran in the HEAT. The heat, people. I figure the "I can't run in heat" excuse is only good for one week, so there it went last week. So this week I ran in the heat and it was as horrible as I thought it would be. One day I had enough sweat in my bra that it was pooling. The absorbing technology in my bra ether failed me or it was overwhelmed because I am not kidding when I say literally a pool of water hit my bathroom floor when I came home to shower. It was as disgusting as that sounds.
I was supposed to start kickboxing today and got all mentally ready for it. Then I go onto Facebook to see that tonight's class wasn't happening. FUCK ME. This is my third or fourth attempt to start and they cancel the class last minute. Every class I can't go to is on, just not the ones I want to go to. That is more than a little annoying.
Next week I am going to do an official weigh in with pictures! This week I was 174 and that is gross. I'm nowhere near my worst but still, I know I can do better. And I will. In order to get myself to be more accountable I got myself the MyFitnessPal app for my phone so I'm trying to track my food. A huge slap in the face is seeing how many calories you actually eat in a day. It's actually god damn depressing. And I hate checking to see how many calories something is only to realize that if I eat that, I'm left with enough calories for maybe a grape for dinner. I'm fucking HANGRY people. I am so beyond hungry that I am angry about it.
Not to mention I of course pick the worst week ever to weigh myself and start a calorie tracking app- the week of my period. You all need to fear for the lives of everyone around me. It's not pretty.
For those of you following me on my thunder thigh removal quest, how are you doing? What is keeping you motivated?