This year started out strong in November. I was doing so well and I felt good. Then I started getting sick in the beginning of December and it literally sucked the life right out of me. I only baked two small batches of cookies (everyone was pretty disappointed about this), I half-assed our dinner. I got depressed because by mid-December more bills came in than expected so I was really broke and couldn't get Matt the things I really wanted to get him, which only made me feel terrible. And then my volunteer responsibilities at the kids' school, despite best efforts, grew exponentially and I ended that week feeling really angry.
Then depression hit. I knew it was only a matter of time, but I really had hoped maybe Christmas would head it off another week or two, but alas- it hit me and hit me hard. Has managed to stick around and I really feel defeated. Which, it's a post for another day. But Christmas still came and this is what it looked like.
Matt got some work pants he needed and a few other things I didn't even see. I got a griddle, a book, and a few other things. Overall it was a pretty fun night.
Once we got home we set out cookies and milk for Santa, and carrots for the reindeer. The kids were pretty excited there were just a few carrot crumbs left on our sidewalk. We got them to bed and I got the tree set up.
After all of the guest left, the kids started opening boxes and Jackson quietly worked on his Lego set. It took him about two hours but he built it totally by himself. He was SO proud of himself. Now he has it displayed on his dresser for anyone who wants to come see it. Olivia started working on her weaving loom I got her and has already made four potholders and requested a loom refill!
Then after Christmas, my very best friend Tammy sneakily dropped off presents for my kids. They were so excited to get Barnes & Noble gift cards and other little things. If you give these kids a gift card to anywhere, they get so excited they could burst.
Usually the day after Christmas we spend time in the morning writing out our thank you cards. Santa got the kids a new art set (in a super nice, small rubbermaid tote) and they diligently wrote them out. If you haven't gotten your thank you yet, it's because it's in my purse waiting to be mailed.
I haven't left the house with the exception for an appointment on Wednesday since Christmas Eve. I just don't have it in me to go out into the world. Matt said I have to get out today so he's making me run errands. Which... I mean, I'll probably just sit in my van and cry for awhile if we're being honest. I don't know if I should be worried that I'm looking forward to it or not.
But that was our Christmas. It was good for me to see my children happy. I am so grateful to have such great friends who think my kids are as great as I do. I'm lucky to have family who do so much for us. If I didn't have either of those things, I honestly don't know where I would be.